You’re reading this, so the title must have grabbed your attention. It wasn’t my idea– I was planning to write “Lessons from a Triathlon, Part 1”. But I was in my kitchen doing kitchen stuff, singing along in my head to some song on Pandora, when it hit me: I don’t owe God anything. Have you ever received just the perfect gift or act of kindness from someone, at just the right moment, so you wanted to laugh and cry at the same time? That’s how I felt when I realized this.
I was raised in a tradition of doing stuff (and not doing stuff) for God. There were lots of rules and expectations, and I was actually taught that even though my sins could be forgiven if I did x, y, and z, every sin I committed would leave a residue on my soul that had to be burned off by suffering. Other traditions don’t go so far as burning off the residue of sin, but a lot of them give you the impression that God is angry with you every time you sin and/or pleased with you when you do stuff like go to church, give to the poor, read the Bible, and pray.
Years ago I first heard that “it is by grace you are saved, and not by works.” What is this grace? One story I heard involves a person who is wronged by another and instead of punching the offender, goes out and buys him an ice cream cone. The point was, grace is something good God gives us with complete disregard to what we actually deserve from Him. But why?
The piece of this that hit me that day in the kitchen was that grace is a gift. If someone gives you a gift you can’t pay for it, or it isn’t really a gift. You aren’t expected to get them a gift in return (in theory anyway.) The nature of a gift is that the giver gives it freely, out of love for the recipient.
Now we are getting somewhere: God gives grace out of His love for us. Though I had heard about it all my life, I never had the least understanding of God’s love until I had kids. Think about it: A baby girl is born. She is incapable of anything but crying, eating, spitting up, filling her diaper, and (hopefully) sleeping. What good is she to the parents? Yet they will do everything in their power for that kid, out of love. There is no chance that the baby is going to pay them back for their sacrifice any time soon, if ever. But the parents still want to give her the best of everything.
That’s what God’s love is like, at least a little bit. Compared to Him we are helpless and useless (not to mention horrible to each other,) and yet He gives us everything- not because He needs or expects us to do something for Him, but because He chooses to love us. We are His children because He wants it that way. Not only does He not expect us to pay Him back, He says we can’t receive His love except as a gift. We can’t buy salvation and we can’t earn it. That ubiquitous verse you see everywhere, John 3:16, sums it up. God so LOVED the world that He GAVE His Son, so that everyone who believes would have eternal life.
Grace is a gift. It’s free. The verse says “Everyone who believes.” Not “everyone who goes to church, gives to the poor, reads the Bible.” Not “everyone who holds onto the correct doctrine.” Not even “everyone who does more good things than bad things.”
It’s free. He gave it. I received it. I don’t owe God anything, and that’s something to shout about!
2 thoughts on “I Don’t Owe God Anything”
Bless you for sharing your stories with me. My cheeks are wet as I read the inspired words you typed into this blog. I have been in a dark place for quite awhile & needed to hear that my Father loves me even if others tell me I’m worthless everyday or I can’t perform to the extent I know I’m intended for & slide back into depression. When I retreat from Him cause I am ashamed I’m not “standing in faith” He hasn’t given up on me. Thank you so much for filling my heart with the promise of His love. ❤
I can hear you; your tone and emotion resonates. Obviously you were feeling this and communicate it well to the reader. Thanks for being sensitive to hearing His voice and sharing this experience.